1609 Days..... That is how long it has been since my last post.
Some big things have happened since then.....
- Moved to Greensboro, NC to take on role of Director of Triathlon, Cross Country and Track & Field at Guilford College (2018-2022)
- Covid 19 & lockdowns
- Raced triathlons except 2020 (Covid 19)
- Moved to Newberry, SC to take on role of Head Women's Triathlon Coach at Newberry College (2022-present)
- Stopped seeing a therapist and taking Lexapro, maybe not the best thing
- Still suffering from Persistent Depressive Disorder
- Still wanting to allow myself to be happy
- Still can't get out of my head when things are good
One thing I realized is that I should have never stopped as it was a great outlet for me in addition to my therapy sessions. I won't get into all the reasons I stopped but the major one at that time was the stigma attached to mental health disorders.
But now, with some encouragement and some inspiration, it is time to start blogging again. I will just say that I believe I have experienced what it is like to be happy, really happy, and I hate to resort to my old habit of ruminating about reasons why I don't deserve this happiness.
In addition to blogging, I will be returning to therapy on January 3, 2023. I know I will not beat these old habits by just blogging alone and I will need some coaching through this. But I am motivated to continue this feeling of happiness and unforced smiles!
Stay Tuned!
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